Week Two, Endurance

I meant to post a week 1 update, but alas, I was too busy packing ice onto my burning flesh. All I can say about the first week is: pure misery. Here are some highlights:

  • Absolutely no sleep
  • Gunk coming out of my eyes like crazy
  • A clear goo oozing out of the rest of me
  • Burning, burning, and, oh, more burning

Here’s how I looked at the end of week 1:

Not pretty.

Not pretty. But better than the first few days.

Foolishly, I thought I would be above average in this whole healing experience. Why? Because I am upbeat and positive, and naturally the Universe would want to reward me for that, right? Wrong. A couple of days after this picture was taken, the “red sleeves” came on and the red bumps spread out to my back, butt, and legs. I was going backwards, not forwards.

I had been hoping that healing would be linear, that every day I would improve just a little. Wrong again. This going-backwards interlude ended with a serious crying jag because I hadn’t slept in days. Oddly, it seemed like my eyes would not actually produce tears. I’m hoping I was imagining that.

Fast forward to the end of week two. Better. Improving. Marginally. I slept through the night for the past two nights, one of them without ice packs. Massive victory! I’m drying up and shedding skin all over the place. My eyes and lips have little cuts all around them that make living unpleasant. And I generally feel gross and awful and like I still have the worse sunburn ever in the history of the world. But, I am trying to stay positive. I figure I’ve got nothing but my shiny attitude.

I haven’t left the house since this whole thing started except to go to the doctor. It’s August and bloody hot, so I’ve been hiding in the temperature-controlled basement. I’ve been fortunate enough to be able to work from home, thank goodness.

Here’s how I look today, at the end of week two:

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I’m improving, right? RIGHT?

 

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Topical Steroid Withdrawal, Much Wow

So, yes, I did have a “rebound” reaction after stopping the topical steroid I’d been using the past year (clobetasol). My face swelled up so badly that I went to the ER, where they put me on a course of prednisone for two weeks.

The bad news is that after I tapered off the prednisone last week, the face swelling and rash came raging back. I’ve been off the prednisone now four days. My eyes are so swollen that one of them actually sealed shut yesterday while taking a nap (has since re-opened, thankfully). My face is splotchy with red patches and I have a pretty bad rash across my neck and chest, inside my elbow folds, and on the backs of my hands. When I woke up today, I felt like the elbow folds and the backs of my hands, while still rashy, had improved. Progress!

Naturally, I spent all of Saturday reading up on topical steroid withdrawal. Horrifying! Apparently, this can take anywhere from six months to two years to clear up. Quelle horreur! In particular, I found the academic articles posted here on ITSAN (a nonprofit trying to raise awareness about topical steroid withdrawal) to be very useful.  My inner scientist always loves a good peer-reviewed article.

I see the dermatologist tomorrow for a follow-up, so we’ll see what he has to say about my situation. I’d really like to stay off of the steroids at this point, but I’m guessing he’ll take one look at me and want to put me right back on them. However, I’ll give the guy a chance since he’s the one who told me about rebound reactions in the first place.

The good news is that there are a ton of blogs out there detailing people’s experiences with this condition. I appreciate this one, this one, and this one. After reading them, I feel like a pretty typical case: atopic dermatitis for years treated by stronger and stronger topical steroids. Turns out that will catch up with you eventually. Sadface. Literally.

I’m basically just trying to keep up my spirits while making a Plan. Sounds like this is going to be an uncomfortable ride to say the least. I’ve been hiding in my basement the entire weekend (too warm upstairs), sitting on the couch with ice packs on my face and neck. I’m definitely unfit for public viewing and moving around isn’t so easy. Oy!

I don’t have the guts to post a full picture of my face. Here’s a partial instead. Wish me luck is all I can say.

 

Seeing is believing.

Seeing is believing.

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The Ladder

Not sure where to start, so I’ll just start.

It’s been a very long time since I updated this blog, a year and a half. I blame a few things: the novel that I started during NaNaWriMo 2010 (and which is almost finished), the new job I got shortly thereafter (that I still have), and the once-a-week French night class (that I had to give up six months ago due to complete life-overwhelm). I suppose I just had other priorities. In any case, here I am, blogging again now.

I missed this blog! I miss blogging in general. Everyone should blog! What a great time capsule and scrapbook for myself, not to mention my own personal online cookbook. “Where’s my quince liqueur recipe? How did I make that winter slaw?” Answer: look on your blog.

I spent some time reminiscing here on my old blog this morning and I really enjoyed it. I’d like to post an update of the backyard, which looks very different from how it did here and here. And the front yard got a significant makeover as well. In addition, we remodeled our basement, building on the work we started here and here in our kitchen. Yay for home improvements.

On the health front, I’m sad to say that the SCD went by the wayside for me sometime in 2012-13. I was getting really healthy again, so naturally, I fell off the wagon. I was still gluten-free, but other very bad things, like sugar and GF grains, crept in. Two weeks ago, I endured a rebound reaction after stopping a topical steroid I’d been using the past year to control my rash, and I ended up in the ER with another round of prednisone. My face swelled up so much that I could hardly open my eyes and my skin was just ablaze. Painful, to say the least. Humbled, once again.

How many times will it take for me to understand that I can’t be a “normal” eater? That I’m not a person with a “normal” amount of environmental allergies, a “normal” gut, or a “normal” immune system? That I’m not a person with a reasonable case of atopic dermatitis, but instead a person with a very severe case of it. Well, I’m not sure yet. I’ve embraced the SCD once again and I’m really, really, really hoping that this third time will be the charm and I’ll be able to stick with it for years to come.

The SCD is the only thing I’ve tried in the past 16 years of dealing with this skin issue that has actually greatly improved it, that attempts to relieve the cause and not just mask the symptoms. I don’t use the word cure. But the SCD is the closest I’ve gotten to a cure for my rash. Also, please note, this is not a little rash, people. It’s a life-altering rash. If anyone says to me that I have a little rash, they can expect a fast, hard punch in the gut. You’ve been warned!

All kidding aside, I’m looking forward to several months from now when I’m hoping to feel better after eating right and taking good care of myself. Radical self care, which is part of how I think of the SCD, is a big challenge for me. But it’s what I need to keep practicing.

The upshot here is, of course, that I still love cooking and food. I always will. Cooking has been my longtime hobby and when I can turn around my poor-me attitude, I actually feel nicely challenged by the SCD way of approaching food. For that, I’m extremely grateful.

So, that’s the update. I’ll leave you with one of my favorite parts of Adrienne Rich’s “Diving into the Wreck”, which you should probably click-thru to read right now.

   There is a ladder.
   The ladder is always there
   hanging innocently

 

 

 

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A Stylish Update for the New Year!

A new year, a new bloggy style pour moi! My old WordPress theme was getting rather stale to my eyes, and not in a good-old-crusty-bread kind of way. I’m hoping this new, very clean and crisp theme will encourage me to take and post more photos here. I sold my Nikon D40 last year in a stuff-purge and am now using only my iPhone for photography. There are so many interesting apps out there for modifying phone photos, so I should be able to get creative. Now, whether or not I actually post more photos is an entirely different matter.

But, oh, look! Here’s one now!

SterlingRoomWindow

My view from the Sterling Room, where I sometimes write. This is my vote for the best view in Portland, Oregon.

Oh, and another!

Rug with a rose print

The carpet in the Sterling Room, also the best in Portland. And do admire my new rain boots while you’re at it.

Bonne Annee to all my friends, family, and total strangers out there!

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SCD Thanksgiving Recipes

Thought I’d do a little roundup of SCD Thanskgiving recipes since I myself have been poking around the interwebs this week scouting for turkey-day yumminess. Here we go, yee-haaa!

  • BTVC-SCD group on Yahoo — Marilyn, an amazing resource on this amazing list for SCDers has some Thanksgiving recipes in the Files section that I’ve always wanted to try. If you don’t know how to make gravy or stuffing ala SCD, her recipes look right up your alley. (You’ll need to join the group to see the recipes.)
  • Mrs. Ed always has great recipes. Here are some of her holiday recipes. That Cranberry Crumb Cake is CALLING ME! I need to Block that Caller, for sure. Wow.
  • ComfyTummy’s bacon and egg muffins might just be this year’s Thanksgiving dinner rolls. Hoooo-wee.
  • And of course there’s my own Pumpkin Pie, Cranberry Sauce (actually a People’s Co-op recipe), and Chicken Pate recipes, all of which I continue to love. Note that for the pate I’ve been subbing with straight-up chicken livers, which I’m able to buy in bulk at my local store, hallelujah.

Hope y’all have a great Thanksgiving! Here’s another pic of the Champoeg Farms chickens and ducks (man, it was dreary that day):

chickens and ducks at Champoeg Farms

Seemed a little torturous that they had to look at their pumpkin treats just outside their pens all day. Poor delicious dinners!

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Thanksgiving Menu 2012

There’s always that moment each November when I finally commit to the Thanksgiving menu. This is often in the middle of NaNoWriMo, quince frenzy, and other such autumnal insanities.

We’re hosting a small crew this year, which is just the way I like it. My preferred approach to Thanksgiving is more like Foodie Holiday All Day where I can just be in the kitchen making stuff I really like. Hence, no mashed potatoes on this menu. If people want mashed potatoes, they can bring that themselves! I’m not completely anti-tradition, but for me, this holiday is about cooking and eating. And if I’m doing the hosting, then I’m only going to prepare what I actually like and can eat. So here it is:

Thanksgiving Menu 2012

As you can see, we’ll have a vegetarian, a diabetic, and someone who doesn’t drink or eat sweets (including honey). Then there’s me, straight-up crazy with the food, so this menu has to be SCD-legal. Seems like the American way these days to have eaters all over the map, which is fine by me. I enjoy accommodating people’s needs, especially for the holidays when food is such A Thing.

A lot of the items on this menu I’ve already made, like the quince liqueur (made with honey. yea!), limoncello (The Man made this, actually, and with honey, double-yea!), membrillo (made with honey, for the win!), and I’m making the bread tonight from Kendall Conrad’s cookbook. She has an excellent cashew bread recipe. It’s great for making stuffing, too. Yum.

And today we went and picked up the turkey from Champoeg Farm. Here’s a pic of their chickens eating pumpkins (the turkeys were, ahem, indisposed already):

chickens eating pumpkins

Looking forward to it!

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Fall Foraging in the Northwest

The only excuse I can offer for not posting in a coon’s age is, in a word, summer. Enough said.

To make up for it, here are a bunch of photos of things the Foodie family foraged from the fields of the Willamette Valley this weekend. Yea! And once again, I wish I were a better photographer.

Mixed walnuts in their shells. Fond memories of walnut gathering as a kid out in Niles Canyon. :-)

Rose hips for jelly and tea. I can’t determine whether these are SCD legal or not. Anyone know?

Hazelnuts. There were so many, people literally had buckets to collect them in. We collected about two of these jars full. Plans for these include a homemade SCD gianduja.

Hazelnuts still in the flower. This is how they look coming off the tree and often on the ground. Over time, they fall out of the flower and just the nut is left. These flowers are dry and crackly, like a corn husk, and prickly on one’s fingers.

Seeds from wildflowers. I think the one on the left is Centaurium erythraea (Common centaury) and the one on the right is Tanacetum vulgare (Common tansy). Shout out to the awesome pnwflowers.com. I’ve gotten into using Latin names lately, the reason for which I hope to blog about soon.

Saving the best for last! These came from a neighbor’s quince tree, about as local as one can get. This is probably 50-70 lbs, which is all we could gather from the tree (some were too high up to reach). I’m hoping to make quince jack this year for a friend’s speakeasy party in early December, among other things.

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